Emails I Can’t Send – Lyrics

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Emails I Can't Send E
[VERSE]
It’s times like these, wish I had a time machine
So I could see what you did October 13th
At 10:15, were you really asleep?
Were you lyin’ to me and the family?
There’s no “us” in us when I’m lackin’ trust
You wanna discuss, ugh, you disgust me
Don’t make me cuss you out, why’d you let me down?
Don’t say sorry now
And thanks to you, I, I can’t love right
I get nice guys and villainize them
Read their texts like they’re havin’ sex right now
Scared I’ll find out that it’s true
And if I do, then I blame you
For every worst that I assume
When I’m forty-five, someone calls me their wife
And he fucks our lives in one selfish night
Don’t think I’ll find forgiveness as fast as mom did
And God, I love you, but you’re such a dipshit
Please fuckin’ fix this
‘Cause you were all I looked up to
Now I can’t even look at you

[OUTRO]
(You too)
I mean, as they say in Chicago
“He had it comin'”

Vicious E
[VERSE 1]
One year, ten thousand bad moments
But it was dressed up in heated emotion
And I tried to look for the best in the worst
But like, fuck me, that caused a commotion
You’re lucky I’m a private person
I’ve quietly carried your burden
And everyone thinks you’re an angel
But shit, I would probably use different wordin’

[CHORUS]
Oh, you’re so vicious
Love me, then pretend you didn’t
Crush my heart and wreck my image
Why you gotta be so vicious?

[VERSE 2]
You like a certain type of woman
Who’s smart, but neglects intuition
When you’re insecure, could be me, could be her
You just run to whoever is winnin’ (Ah)

[PRE-CHORUS]
Said that it was me and you for life
Now you’re kinda acting like I died

[CHORUS]
Oh, you’re so vicious
Love me, then pretend you didn’t
Crush my heart and wreck my image
Why you gotta be so, so, so
Oh, you’re so vicious (No)
Love me, then pretend you didn’t
Half of me just can’t resist it
Why you gotta be so vicious?

[POST-CHORUS]
Oh, no
Why you gotta be so
Oh, oh
Why you gotta be so vicious?

[BRIDGE]
You don’t feel remorse, you don’t feel the effects
‘Cause you don’t think you hurt me if you wish me the best
I shoulda known all along, I was only the next one
To take your love songs as a promise

[OUTRO]
Oh, you’re so vicious
I loved you, but I wish I didn’t
If you’re out there somewhere listenin’
Why you gotta be so vicious?

Read Your Mind
[INTRO]
Ah

[VERSE 1]
Made it clear when you told me (Ah-ah)
Don’t know why, but you gotta be lonely (Ah-ah-ah)
Say it’s hard, but you make it look easy (Ah-ah)
So I’m tryin’ to live in reality (Ah-ah-ah-ah)

[PRE-CHORUS]
Decompressin’, tryna ease the tension, but you
Got me stressin’, feelin’ like I need to call when
You sneak up on me, tell me that you miss me in your life

[CHORUS]
I can’t read your mind
You say that you need to be alone
But night and day, want me at your beck and call
You say you know that you might be crossin’ a line
Wastin’ all our time
To think that we could be casual
You’re not my friend and, baby, you never were
Why the fuss if you say you just wanna be mine?
I can’t read your mind

[VERSE 2]
Tell me, what’s gonna happen
When it’s you and me in a room, but you know you can’t have it?
Oh, I’ll be laughin’
When you say that you really have changed
Finally found your way
‘Cause I’m close to your face (Ah-ah-ah-ah-ah)

[PRE-CHORUS]
Double-checkin’, did I get the message in the way
You intended? Got me second-guessin’ when you
Sneak up on me, tell me that you need me in your life

[CHORUS]
I can’t read your mind
You say that you need to be alone
But night and day, want me at your beck and call
You say (Uh) you know (Yeah) that you might be crossin’ a line
Wastin’ all our time
To think that we could be casual
You’re not my friend and, baby, you never were
Why the fuss if you say you just wanna be mine?
I can’t read your mind

[BRIDGE]
You say that you need to be alone
But night and day, want me at your beck and call
You say you know that you might be crossin’ a line

[CHORUS]
I can’t read your mind
You say that you need to be alone
But night and day, want me at your beck and call (Want me at your beck and call)
You say you know that you might be crossin’ a line
Wastin’ all our time (Time)
To think (Think) that we could be casual
You’re not (Not) my friend (My friend) and, baby, you never were
Why (Why) the fuss (Fuss) if you say you just wanna be mine?
I can’t read your mind

[OUTRO]
Ha-ah-ah-ah, la, mm-mm

Tornado Warnings E
[VERSE 1]
We were never in the park
Talkin’ on a seesaw teetering with our feelings in the dark
Ignoring tornado warnings
He didn’t hold me in his arms
We didn’t stumble over the pages of our relationship arc
Ignoring tornado warnings

[PRE-CHORUS]
Don’t understand how quickly we get
Right back in our rhythm without missing a step
And logically the last thing I should have on my mind
But I want you there sometimes

[CHORUS]
I guess maybe that’s why I’m lying to my therapist
I keep saying things like, “I never saw him and we never kissed”
Now I think somehow in my mind
If I could convince him, if he doesn’t see it, then maybe it doesn’t exist
I think he’s onto me every time I say I’m over that son of a bitch
I’m lying to my therapist

[VERSE 2]
I deserve an hour in a week to focus on my thoughts
Not so obsessed with yours, I can’t hear myself speak
I deserve my own consideration, but sometimes, I wish I kept
Some of my feelings in the basement so I’d still have some left

[PRE-CHORUS]
Don’t understand how quickly we get
Right back in our rhythm without missing a step
And logically the last thing I should have on my mind
But I want you there sometimes

[CHORUS]
I guess maybe that’s why I’m lying to my therapist
I keep saying things like, “I never saw him and we never kissed”
Now I think somehow in my mind
If I could convince him, if he doesn’t see it, then maybe it doesn’t exist
I think he’s onto me every time I say I’m over that son of a bitch
I’m lying to my therapist

[BRIDGE]
I’ll drive you home, you drive me crazy
But that’s not gonna stop me
I’ll call you out, you call me “baby”
But that’s not gonna stop me

[CHORUS]
From lying to my therapist
I keep saying things like, “I never saw him and we never kissed”
Now I think somehow in my mind
If I could convince him, if he doesn’t see it, then maybe it doesn’t exist
I think he’s onto me every time I say I’m over that son of a bitch
I’m lying to my therapist

Because I Liked a Boy E
[VERSE 1]
I said I wanted Thin Mints and you said you knew a guy
You showed up with a boombox and stars in your eyes
Who knew cuddling on trampolines could be so reckless?
We bonded over Black Eyed Peas and complicated exes

[PRE-CHORUS]
Fell so deeply into it
It was all so innocent

[CHORUS]
Now I’m a homewrecker, I’m a slut
I got death threats fillin’ up semitrucks
Tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked
I’m the hot topic on your tongue
I’m a rebound gettin’ ’round stealin’ from the young
Tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked a boy

[POST-CHORUS]
Ah, mmm

[VERSE 2]
I’m not catastrophizing, everything’s derailing
Was only tryna hold you close while your heart was failing
It’s not internet illusion, just two kids going through it
You said I’m too late to be your first love, but I’ll always be your favorite

[CHORUS]
Now I’m a homewrecker, I’m a slut
I got death threats fillin’ up semitrucks
Tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked
I’m the hot topic on your tongue
I’m a rebound gettin’ ’round stealin’ from the young
Tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked a boy

[POST-CHORUS]
Ah
Ah
Ah
All because I liked a boy

[BRIDGE]
Fell so deeply into it
It was all so innocent
Dating boys with exes
No, I wouldn’t recommend it

[CHORUS]
I’m a homewrecker, I’m a slut
I got death threats fillin’ up semitrucks
Tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked a boy
And all of this for what?
When everything went down, we’d already broken up
Please tell me who I am, guess I don’t have a choice
All because I liked a boy

[OUTRO]
Ah (A boy)
Ah (A boy)
Ah
All because I liked a boy

Already Over
[VERSE 1]
We been talkin’ for hours
‘Bout how we shouldn’t talk for hours on end
Kissin’ after a conversation
‘Bout how we’d probably be better off as friends

[POST-CHORUS]
Same time here next weekend
Say we won’t do this again
Make me fall where I stand
Only like you can

[CHORUS]
Yeah, I say I’m done, but I’m still confused
How am I supposed to close the door when I still need the closure?
And I change my mind, but it’s still on you
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?

[VERSE 2]
Selfishly don’t wanna give you
Time to be on someone else’s lips (Ah)
But I’ll take three short hours over
Three long weeks pretendin’ like we don’t exist, hmm (Ah)

[POST-CHORUS]
Same time here next weekend
Say we won’t do this again
Make me fall where I stand
Only like you can

[CHORUS]
Yeah, I say I’m done, but I’m still confused
How am I supposed to close the door when I still need the closure?
And I change my mind, but it’s still on you
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?

[BRIDGE]
After the aftermath, I know you’ll be comin’ back
To the back bedroom and it won’t be the last
Of the aftermath, I know you’ll be comin’ back
To the back bedroom and it won’t be the last time

[CHORUS]
I say I’m done, but I’m still confused
How am I supposed to close the door when I still need the closure? (Ooh)
And I change my mind, but it’s still on you
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?

[OUTRO]
Yeah, I like my bed, but it likes you too
How am I supposed to leave you now that you’re already over?

How Many Things E
[VERSE 1]
You used a fork once
It turns out forks are fuckin’ everywhere
There’s no hiding from the thought of us
I got ways to find you anywhere
We sat on the roof once
Conversation took us everywhere
And we talked until the sun came up
I wish we stayed just like we were up there

[PRE-CHORUS]
I consider you, I’m not trying to
It doesn’t matter whether not I want to
I can’t help it, it’s a habit
Your corner in my mind is well-established

[CHORUS]
I, I wonder how many things you think about before you get to me
I wonder how many things you wanna do, you think I’m in-between
I feel myself fallin’ further down your priorities
And I still make excuses for you constantly
I wonder how many things you think about
Before, before you get to me

[VERSE 2]
Remember when you left once?
That never made too much sense to me
Well, it hurt you so bad hurting me
You really came to me for sympathy

[PRE-CHORUS]
Oh, I consider you and I’m not trying to
It doesn’t matter whether not I want to
I can’t help it, it’s a habit
Your corner in my mind is well-established

[CHORUS]
I, I wonder how many things you think about before you get to me
I wonder how many things you wanna do, you think I’m in-between
And I feel myself falling further down your priorities
And I still make excuses for you constantly
I wonder how many things you think about
Before, before you get to me

[BRIDGE]
Am I not even a second thought?

[CHORUS]
I wonder how many things you think about before you get to me
I wonder how many things you wanna do, you think I’m in-between
I feel myself fallin’ further down your priorities
And I still make excuses for you constantly
I wonder how many things you think about
Before, before you get to me

[OUTRO]
Wonder how many things

Bet U Wanna
[VERSE 1]
Told me, told me I’m your only
It’s all unfoldin’, babe
Slowly, slowly, lies you sold me
All saw the light of day

[PRE-CHORUS]
You been wastin’ time on the other side
If you’re satisfied, touché
Now you say you hate all the empty space
And if you could go back, you’d stay

[CHORUS]
Didn’t think about it when you let me down
Hurts to see me outta your reach
Bet you wanna touch me now
It’s cold out there, let me know what you found
(Let me know what you found)
Bet you wanna love me now
Bet you wanna love me now

[VERSE 2]
Chase me, chase me, that’s right, baby
Yeah, feel the way it feels
When you don’t havе control of who I’m holdin’
Is it feedin’ all your fears?

[PRE-CHORUS]
You been wastin’ time on the othеr side
If you’re satisfied, touché
But the lights are off, your so-called friends are gone
Oh, I know what you’re ’bout to say

[CHORUS]
Didn’t think about it when you let me down
Hurts to see me outta your reach
Bet you wanna touch me now
It’s cold out there, let me know what you found
(Let me know what you found)
Bet you wanna love me now
Bet you wanna love me now
Didn’t think about it when you let me down
Hurts to see me outta your reach
Bet you wanna touch me now
It’s cold out there, let me know what you found
(Let me know what you found)
Bet you wanna love me now
Bet you wanna love me now

[POST-CHORUS]
I bet you wanna
I bet you wanna (Ah)

[BEIDGE]
Bet you miss me, bet you’re reminiscin’
I bet you hate the way that you said goodbye
And you still can’t even tell me why
I hate the way that you left me dry
But I’ll keep that between you and I

[CHORUS]
I bet you didn’t think about it when you let me down
Hurts to see me outta your reach
Bet you wanna touch me now (Oh, touch me now)
It’s cold out there, let me know what you found
Bet you wanna love me now (Uh-huh)
Bet you wanna love me now

Nonsense
[INTRO]
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh (Oh-oh, la-la)
Da-ah, ah-ah, ah-ah-ah
Uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh, uh-huh
Yeah

[VERSE 1]
Think I only want one number in my phone
I might change your contact to “Don’t Leave Me Alone”
You said you like my eyes and you like to make ’em roll
Treat me like a queen, now you got me feelin’ thrown, oh

[PRE-CHORUS]
But I can’t help myself when you get close to me
Baby, my tongue goes numb, sounds like “bleh-blah-blee”
I don’t want no one else (No, no), baby, I’m in too deep
Here’s a lil’ song I wrote (A song I wrote), it’s about you and me (Me)

[CHORUS]
I’ll be honest
Lookin’ at you got me thinkin’ nonsense
Cartwheels in my stomach when you walk in
And when you got your arms around me
Oh, it feels so good
I had to jump the octave
I think I got an ex, but I forgot him
And I can’t find my chill, I must’ve lost it
I don’t even know, I’m talkin’ nonsense
I’m talkin’, I’m talkin’ (Ah-ah-ah-ah)

[VERSE 2]
I’m talkin’ all around the clock
I’m talkin’ hope nobody knocks
I’m talkin’ opposite of soft
I’m talkin’ wild, wild thoughts
You gotta keep up with me
I got some young energy
I caught the L-O-V-E
How do you do this to me?

[PRE-CHORUS]
But I can’t help myself when you get close to me
Baby, my tongue goes numb, sounds like “bleh-blah-bleh-blee”
And I don’t want no one else (No, no), baby, I’m in too deep (Too deep)
Here’s a lil’ song I wrote (A song I wrote), it’s about you and me

[CHORUS]
I’ll be honest (Honest)
Lookin’ at you got me thinkin’ nonsense (Nonsense)
Cartwheels in my stomach when you walk in (When you walk in)
When you got your arms around me
Oh, it feels so good
I had to hit the octave
I think I got an ex, but I forgot him
And I can’t find my chill, I must’ve lost it
I don’t even know, I’m talkin’ nonsense (Oh-oh)
I’m talkin’, I’m talkin’, I’m talkin’

[BRIDGE]
I’m talkin’, I’m talkin’ (Na-na-na), I’m talkin’
(Blah-blah, blah-blah)
Ah-ah, ah-ah, ah (Ah-ah)
I don’t even know anymore
(Oh)

[OUTRO]
This song catchier than chickenpox is
I bet your house is where my other sock is
Woke up this morning, thought I’d write a pop hit, ha-ha
How quickly can you take your clothes off? Pop quiz
That one’s not gonna make it
Most of these aren’t gonna make—

Fast Times E
[VERSE 1]
Sun’s up too soon like daylight savings
Mixed emotions are congregating
Picturin’ us in all these places
Ahead of myself’s an understatement
Sky looks so purple, I can taste it
Couple days in, I call you “baby”
Three stories up here contemplatin’
But what the fuck is patience?

[CHORUS]
These are fast times and fast nights, yeah
No time for rewrites, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah
Give me a second to forget I evеr really meant it
Fast times and fast nights, yеah
Closed eyes and closed blinds, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah
Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it

[VERSE 2]
My feelings used to be serrated
But you speak in such a perfect cadence
Tiptoeing past so many stages
But what the fuck is patience?

[CHORUS]
These are fast times and fast nights, yeah
No time for rewrites, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah
Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it
Fast times and fast nights, yeah
Closed eyes and closed blinds, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah
Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it

[BRIDGE]
These, these are
These are the fast times
These, these are
These are the—

[CHORUS]
Fast times and fast nights, yeah (Yeah)
No time for rewrites, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah (Yeah)
Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it
Fast times and fast nights, yeah
Closed eyes and closed blinds, we couldn’t help it
Outlines on bed sides, yeah
Give me a second to forget I ever really meant it

Skinny Dipping
[VERSE 1]
It’ll be a Wednesday
And I’ll be goin’ to this coffee shop
Hear the barista call an oat milk latte and your name
And I look up from my phone
And think there’s no chance it’s you, but it is
You’ll say, “Hi,” I’ll say, “Hi, how are you?”
You’ll say, “How’s your family? How’s your sister?”
I’ll say, “Shannon’s bein’ Shannon”
After a minute of nonsensical chatter, you’ll say
“Well, this was really nice, maybe we should do this on purpose sometime”
And it’ll have been long enough that we won’t harp on (Hmm)

[PRE-CHORUS]
Arguments in your garage
All the ways we sabotaged it (Mmm)
What it was and what it wasn’t

[CHORUS]
We’ve been swimmin’ on the edge of a cliff
I’m resistant, but goin’ down with the ship
It’d bе so nice, right? Right?
If we could take it all off and just еxist
And skinny dip in water under the bridge

[VERSE 2]
You’ll suggest a restaurant we used to go to
And I’ll say, “Won’t that be too nostalgic?”
And you’ll say, “Maybe, but let’s do it anyway
We won’t sit at our same old table, I promise
And we won’t bring up the past, we’ll keep it bureaucratic”
And we won’t say it, but both of us, we’ll be thinkin’ about
How different we are from those scared little kids that had those (Hmm)

[PRE-CHORUS]
Arguments in your garage
All the ways we sabotaged it (Mmm)
What it was and what it wasn’t

[CHORUS]
We’ve been swimmin’ on the edge of a cliff
I’m resistant, but goin’ down with the ship
It’d be so nice, right? Right?
If we could take it all off and just exist
And skinny dip in water under the bridge

[BRIDGE]
Ah-ha-ha, ah-ha, ah-ha, ha
Ah-ha-ha, ah-ha, ah-ha, ha
Ah-ha-ha, ah-ha, ah-ha, ha
Ah-ha-ha, ah-ha, ah-ha, ha

[OUTRO]
We’ve been swimmin’ on the edge of a cliff
I’m resistant, but goin’ down with the ship
It’d be so nice, right? Right
If we could take it all off and just exist
And skinny dip in water under the bridge

Bad For Business
[CHORUS]
He’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business
Tears me apart when he grants my wishes
All of my friends think I’ve gone crazy
But they don’t know me like my baby

[VERSE 1]
We look good in photographs
I like the way you like to laugh
At dirty jokes, I know they’ll always land
Used to get to work on time
But now you’re takin’ up my nights
Never been so glad to be so tired

[PRE-CHORUS]
Ooh, I’m mad for you
It’s sad but true and I know it
Ah, you’re on my mind
You stole my life and it’s showin’ (Baby)

[CHORUS]
He’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business
Tears me apart when he grants my wishes
All of my friends think I’ve gone crazy
But they don’t know me like my baby

[VERSE 2]
If I’m just writin’ happy songs
Will anybody sing along?
You had to go and break into my head
And I would try to fight these feelings
I can’t find a single reason
I’d make all the same mistakes again, ah

[PRE-CHORUS]
Ooh, I’m mad for you
It’s sad but true and I know it
Ah, you’re on my mind
You stole my life and it’s showin’

[CHORUS]
He’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business
Tears me apart when he grants my wishes
All of my friends think I’ve gone crazy
But they don’t know me like my baby

[BRIDGE]
He’s good (Good), it’s bad (Bad)
The best I’ve ever had (Best I’ve ever had)
And he’s so nice, it’s sad (It’s sad)
He ruined all my plans
And he just makes me so crazy
I know everyone sees
That he’ll be the death of me

[CHORUS]
He’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business (He’s very bad for business)
Tears me apart when he grants my wishes
All of my friends think I’ve gone crazy
But they don’t know me like my baby

[OUTRO]
He’s good for my heart, but he’s bad for business (So bad)
Tears me apart when he grants my wishes
All of my friends think I’ve gone crazy
But they don’t know me like my baby

Decode
[VERSE 1]
You’re good at the fallin’, not the stayin’ there
You’re good at the givin’ too much, then gettin’ scared
You’re good at impersonating someone who cares
And you had me for a minute there

[PRE-CHORUS]
But now I wonder why
I let your confusion keep me up at night
I’m so tired
Reread every single undertone and I

[CHORUS]
Overanalyzed it
Front, back, and beside it
Where else can we go?
There’s nothin’ left hеre to decode
Donе lookin’ for signs in
The gaps and the silence
It’s just gettin’ old
There’s nothin’ left here to decode

[POST-CHORUS]
Mm, mm-mm

[VERSE 2]
There’s a weight off my shoulders now that I don’t chase you
Bein’ myself, did that emasculate you?
Learnin’ from you that I can walk away too
And you had me for a minute too

[PRE-CHORUS]
But now I wonder why
I let your indecision keep me up at night
I’m so tired
Unpacked every single word you wrote and I

[CHORUS]
Overanalyzed it
Front, back, and beside it
Where else can we go?
There’s nothin’ left here to decode
Done lookin’ for signs in
The gaps and the silence
It’s just gettin’ old
There’s nothin’ left here to decode

[POST-CHORUS]
Mm, mm-mm
There’s nothin’ left here to decode
Mm, mm-mm

[PRE-CHORUS]
Now I wonder why
I let your confusion keep me up at night
I’m so tired
Reread every single undertone and I

[CHORUS]
Overanalyzed it
Front, back, and beside it
Where else can we go?
There’s nothin’ left here to decode
Done lookin’ for signs in
The gaps and the silence
It’s just gettin’ old
There’s nothin’ left here to decode

[POST-CHORUS]
There’s nothin’, there’s nothin’, there’s nothin’ (Mm, mm-mm)
There’s nothin’ left here to decode
There’s nothin’, there’s nothin’, there’s nothin’ (No, mm)
There’s nothin’ left here to decode

[OUTRO]
I wanna make a video to our future selves